So my search for happiness continues today as I look back on my life I have been given the pleasure of meeting people who have shared happiness with me so in these next few writing I am going to share with you them people who have shared happiness with me.
So there I was having a new job, the most I have ever made in my entire life, but I was not happy with my life, I was miserable, full of self-pity, nagativism, and self worthlessness. So my first month at the hospital my assignment was to clean the cancer ward. It was a assignment that at first I hated. Most the patients there had cancer that would eventually take over there bodies and kill them. It was a sad place to b, or I thought. After a couple days there I began to realize that from the housekeepers to the nurses to the doctors to other staff members that it was a place of being happy, and there goal was to keep the patients in high spirits, and what I saw they did a very awesome job at this. Every patient room I cleaned everyone seemed happy, but how could they be so happy knowing that they would be lucky to make it twenty years of age.The atmosphere was much different then any other department in the hospital.
I so didn't want to work in this ward, I wanted a different assignment and I knew that it wasn't meant to be. I was put in this ward for a reason, and that reason was a patient named Michelle, she was one of the older patients she was seventeen and so full of life and happiness, at first she never spoke to me, but I saw her smile and joke with the other patients, the nurses, doctors, and family and friends who would visit her. She was different, she was a fighter, and nothing was going to get her down.
On one particular day, I was in her room busy cleaning, she smiled at me and while she was reading and watching tv. She looked so fragile and I so wished she would have a full life. She had a very clean room and I didn't really have to be in there that long as I have with some of the other patients. As I was finishing up I heard her speak...Mr? she spoke. I looked at her and to me she was in need of a nurse, so I turned around and started to leave the room to get a nurse. MR? please come over hear. I froze never had a patient who would want me to come to them.
I turned around and she said please come here. So I did she looked at me in such a sweet smile, I had butterflies...She wanted to speak, she told me to sit down. I sat down then she spoke again. "Mr, Why are you so unhappy" This blew me away, she didn't know me, we did't talk before, but she knew how I was feeling and everything. So we started to talk, and over the next few months I learned so much from her, she taught me how to be happy with myself, to get rid of self-pity, negativism, self worthlessness and replace everything in life with positive thinking, positive talking, and positive actions. I didn't know at that time that she was teaching me about happiness that didn't come until recently. I was happy everyday and would spend extra time in her room, and I prayed that she would win this battle she was fighting and in 2006 she finally won the battle of cancer and has been living a normal life ever since. Was it faith that saved her life, was it a miracle to me it was something more, it was because she believed she would win this fight, she was strong, and she never gave up on the positive outlook on life, her happiness and will power saved her life.
So I say no matter what one person is going through in there life, that you can still be happy with yourself. If you rid yourself of negativism, self-pity, and self worthlessness you can win the battle of life's down. You have to replace it positive thinking, positive speaking, and positive actions. These three things will let you live the life you so desire and want. It won't be easy, and will even seem impossible at times, but if you condition yourself and think of happiness and replace everything in your life that that seems negative with a positive outlook and attitude you will finally find the happiness you have always been searching for. So today when you feel down, think of Michelle, and think of all the other cancer patients who are going through much more then yourself and tell yourself that you will change your life with positive energy and you will finally find happiness, if you do this, if you really want to change your life then today be more positive and you will with out a doubt find happiness. Are you ready for you life to change?